sarahmichigan: (fitness)
sarahmichigan ([personal profile] sarahmichigan) wrote2009-05-29 12:35 pm

Activity update: Special Self-Loathing Edition

May 21 - May 27

Total days active: 7 out of 7
Total days did full body stretch: 2 out of 7

Comments: Ugh. Fell down on the stretching this last week. A lot of my "activity" the last week was "lifestyle" activity- like yardwork, mowing, walking to and from work. I've not been to the gym much lately. I keep going around in circles with myself. Working out makes me sore, so sometimes I just get lazy and don't do much. But not getting *enough* exercise also makes me sore and achy. Still trying to find the right balance. And when I DO stretch, especially the stretches that I know are good for my hip, I usually do feel better. But unless I'm at the gym, I usually forget, or put it off until "later" and then later never arrives.

Not having a good body image time lately. I have mentioned before that I put on a little weight over the last year or so. I'm trying to see it neutrally but it's really hard. Even as size-positive as I am, I'm not immune to cultural messages. I also noticed yesterday when looking in the mirror that I had a new stretch mark, and for some reason that bothers me more than having some of my pants get tight. I do want to get more active this summer and eat really well. I planted some veggies & herbs and bought a "farm share" from a local farm and I'm looking forward to getting lots of local produce. I just want to make sure that I'm making the changes out of self-love and not out of self-loathing. Even if I remain the same weight or even gain weight, eating more fruits and veggies and stretching more is going to be good for me.

I also think I need to focus again on stress reduction/management. For a while, I wasn't grinding my teeth hardly at all at night, and now I'm doing it again regularly. That, plus my fingernail-biting habit is usually a pretty good indicator of my stress levels.

[identity profile] sarahmichigan.livejournal.com 2009-05-29 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks- appreciated. Most days my self-image is OK, but when I'm really achey for days in a row, it gets me down a little.

[identity profile] meecie.livejournal.com 2009-05-30 02:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I know, I'm much the same way. All sorts of things can trigger it, sore back, puffy ankles, or just feeling off one day. You're gorgeous, though, now as much as ever, and you're taking good care of yourself. That's what's going to count.

[identity profile] sarahmichigan.livejournal.com 2009-05-30 02:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Aw, you're going to make me cry. *sniff*