Observations

[sarahmichigan]

-I am afraid to lose control. I feel like I've often HAD to be the one in control, the one "keeping things together," and if I let go, people will fuck me.

-Change, even necessary and/or good change, is scary.

-My sexuality is not defined by anyone else. I am a whole sexual being in and of myself.

-A mantid, close up, looks like an alien from another world, with that triangle face and glittering eyes. I bet some movie aliens are loosely based on members of the mantis family.

Comments

[sarahmichigan.livejournal.com]

I think that I've been too trusting in some cases and got fucked over, which can make me paranoid even when someone is treating me well; then I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop.

In other cases, I think there's a good reason for being wary of losing control and fearing being fucked over.